• 2012,  BabyA2012,  Quotes,  reflection

    The Special Mother

    The Special Mother by Erma Bombeck Did you ever wonder how mothers of disabled children were chosen? Somehow I visualize God hovering over the earth selecting his instruments of propagation with great care and deliberation. As He observes, He instructs His angels to make notes in a giant ledger. “This one gets a daughter. The Patron saint will be Cecelia” “This one gets twins. The Patron saint will be Matthew” “This one gets a son. The Patron saint…..give her Gerard. She’s used to profanity” Finally He passes a name to an angel and smiles. “Give her a disabled child”. The angel is curious. “Why this one God? She’s so happy”…

  • 2012,  BabyA2012

    I would have made a deal with the devil himself

    Since my last post, things got crazy in the A household. We were finally finding our routine, our normal after introducing another member to our family. And N threw us yet another curveball. A big scary curveball. I turned to leave the room to spend some time with E before his nap and as I got to the door something told me I needed to turn around. To get closer to my son. That’s when I noticed something was horribly wrong. *enter 911* I thought I knew what pain was. I didn’t. Pain is holding your child and not knowing what the future is going to hold and crying out…

  • 2012,  BabyA2012,  reflection

    Fearfully and wonderfully made

    In the past almost 3 months, I’ve learned more about the medical system than I ever cared to know. I know so many procedures, abbreviations, big fancy-smanchy words I never dreamed of knowing. Let alone being able to spell them. This has been intense crash course in life and brought a whole new level to motherhood. But one thing I must admit I hate is the wording medical and non-medical people alike use when describing babies that aren’t ‘typical.’ Words such as wrong, ideal, normal, the dreaded “r” word, and the list could go. There is nothing “wrong” with my littlest man. He is exactly how he was made. He…

  • 2012,  BabyA2012,  reflection

    Stranger Things have Happened

    For some reason I decided to read through my pregnancy journal yesterday. There were many things I already didn’t remember and one especially stood out for me. It was an entry a couple days before I found out I was expecting N. I was having a reoccurring dream that I called so bizarre. In the dream I was “sort of” blind and dizzy. Say whuuuuttt. I commented on how in the dream I was unable to wake up and be my normal self, that this was my life. I just commented on how weird it was. I still don’t remember having that dream but there must have been something that…

  • 2012,  BabyA2012

    N’s Birth Story *Long*

    “Out on the ocean the ship’s sailing away. I can hardly wait to see you come of age. I guess we’ll just have to be patient. ‘Cause it’s a long way to go. And a hard row to hoe. A long way to go but in the mean time…….Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful boy.” – John Lennon Short Version: Friday 1:33AM – Water Breaks at home in bed (Déjà vu for your Dad and me or what?!) Sunday 3:00AM – Woke to the shakes & knew you were going to arrive today. We messaged our doula (L) to let her know my suspicions and went back to bed. 8:34AM – Called L…

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