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Welcome to Holland
Welcome to Holland by Emily Perl Kingsley “I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this…… When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting. After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags…
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I think I can…I think I can
Today I feel like I can do it. I will be his superMom. Tomorrow may be a different story but today, I feel like it’ll be ok and we can do this.
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It was you.
As I stood at the kitchen sink last night washing the last of a few dishes. I smelled something I haven’t smelled in years. My Gram. Just a fleeting scent that only lasted a second, but I recognized the smell I haven’t been around in over 7 years. It was hers and hers alone. I can’t describe it to you. It just is. Now it was here in my house as I stood over the kitchen sink washing dishes while J & E were gone to the local do-it-yourself-store. In my house that didn’t exist 7 years ago. It took me back in that instant and gave me comfort and…
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What I know now
The past year has been one big learning curve. Some days I feel like I know what I’m doing and other days I’m lost, somewhere in oblivion. But, at least the days where I have some sort of clue have outnumbered the days I don’t. I’ve been trying to put into words how I have changed but I can’t. I know I have changed but it’s been so gradual it’s hard to pinpoint the differences. Where the “old me” begins transforming into the “new me”. Was it as soon as I got to hold E? Or was it when I was pregnant? Or was it long before? It’s funny because…
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This minute 1 year ago, I was waiting
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting the past couple days and remembering what my life was like this time last year. It has gone through so many changes, that I would not change for the world. I often think back about the day E decided he was ready. I reminisce about my whole labour experience frequently. I still look back at it in awe and see it as the greatest accomplishment of my life. I’d imagine over the next day or two I will have a few reflection posts. But today I’ve been thinking a lot about this exact day in 2010. I came across the notepad that J…