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Big Steps
I feel like I’m on the verge, the verge of something big. Huge even. Life changing. ? Not sure. But probably. As I sit and await Tuesday, the day I’m starting the next step of this journey, I am anxious, scared, apprehensive, excited, and proud. Proud we made the decision to hope onto a plane, fly thousands of miles to meet people who I feel like I have known for all my life. We debated it for a brief minute many months ago and then jumped in with all our hearts. I’ve put a lot out there for “strangers” to see, but I wouldn’t have it any other way, and…
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PTSD ?
PTSD. Something can be said for all we’ve gone through. It’s given me severe anxiety in certain situations. It doesn’t take much to make me flashback. There’s the smell that is in the MH NICU. Well that whole wing. Since the entrance shares the hallway to L&D it has a smell and atmosphere all to it’s own. It instantly can throw me back into one of the darkest times in my life and make me an emotional mess. There are certain wings and rooms in ACH that does the same. Even certain Doctors. There are deodorants, soaps, hand sanitizers, and even certain food & drinks that make me relive it all. It…