I wonder. I am taking joy in someone else’s failure…well not exactly failure but y’know. That’s not who I am at all! It’s not someone I want to be. However, every time I hear about them through the grapevine and they aren’t doing so well I almost feel smug. :$ I feel horrible about it but how can I change my feelings.
People always say you can’t change who you love, etc etc so maybe I can’t change how I feel about this person. I don’t like admitting it but I hope others feel like this sometimes too. I know it’s probably human nature to feel smug when something not so good happens to someone who burned you or whatever but how to make it go away but to almost take solace in it doesn’t seem right to me. Maybe I don’t want it to go away either. Maybe I like this superior feeling as bad as this might sound.
It’s almost like a young kid….you made me feel bad so I want you to feel bad. I don’t know what this post is supposed to accomplish but it’s all out there.