I’m going to be raw here. My boys aren’t sleeping well. They are afraid to go to sleep. They are afraid they aren’t going to wake up. They need someone with them and even when they do manage sleep they are restless and frightened and sad. How do I comfort them and make them understand that sleep won’t hurt them when all they know is Noah went to sleep and never woke up?! My poor kids, who also loved Noah with every inch of their being, are struggling with managing emotions that I, as an adult can’t even comprehend and explain.
This is the absolute worst pain I could feel in my life. I thought my losing my Mom was going to be the most pain I’d feel. This is even worse. So much worse. The pain and grief is something I can’t even describe. It is beyond words. Pure and simple it is Hell on earth.