2013,  rants'r'us


Let me step off my positive pedestal for a minute.

It’s one of those times where I feel like I failure. Like I am failing N. I feel like I’m not doing enough and he’s just falling further and further behind.

And it’s my fault.

Realistically I know it’s not my fault but I like to tell myself other things sometimes. I see all these kids making strides and hitting new milestones and we are here, where we’ve always been with some regression. And it leaves me to wonder, is it my fault? If I did more, would he do more. I know…complete nonsense but it’s how I feel at this point in time.

One Comment

  • thoughtsandfeelingsfromme

    I wish we lived closer so I could help some days. I haven’t been there since Oliver has been born of course, but I have a feeling you are coping more than just fine with all 3 of yours boys. Noah does require a bit more of your “emotional” time and physical time but from what I saw when I visited that time isn’t taking away much time for the rest of your family. I can imagine there are times you feel differently about that and it may be true but those times have more than been made up for as seeing all 3 boys happy shows that you are doing the best and it is working. Hope this helps you at least a little bit. You’re doing just fine (p.s. you are allowed those few moments of doubt, we all have them when raising our kids, but rest ashored you are doing marvelously). Love you bunches, Mom <3

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