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Weird day
Exploded today. Out of nowhere. Over nothing. I couldn’t control myself. I don’t like that me. It’s like something takes over. It’s something I can’t seem to stop. Bah. Enough about that. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, and reflecting, and praying recently so my blog may have a weird spin. Maybe it won’t. Who knows. Maybe I’ll pose the questions to you guys and see what you think?! (lol) So I made lasagna this morning and it actually turned out. And if I don’t say so myself, John and I make the best lasagna I’ve ever eaten. Nothing fancy. Just meat and sauce and lots of cheese…not a…
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Mirage???
Mirage….if only. Things in mirror may be large as they appear. Gross. Embarrassed. Ashamed. Is it a mirage? If only. Too much, too little, too tight.
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Meh.
Not feeling the love for myself at the moment. It’s hard to explain. I’m just so insecure and have lost all confidence. I can’t go out without keeping my arms across my stomach. What do I think I’m hiding?! Nothing. Probably drawing more attention to the lbs I’ve put on. But I can’t help it. It’s almost like I’m ashamed. I don’t know why I gained the weight either…it all came on in April and I didn’t change anything. However, I figured it would be ok because I usually lose weight every summer and gain it back for winter. Well, I haven’t lost any weight this summer…probably gained more if…
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What happened?
Heart-breaking. Annoyed. Angry. We’ve been nothing but nice and welcoming. Sharing. Trusting. Laughing. No more. Shunned. Saddened. Will move on.
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Hello high school, my old friend.
I hated you then. I hate you even more now. People, do you realize I am going to be 27? High school was many moons ago. Grow up. Embrace Life. Enjoy the change. Discover yourself. Lose this stupid teenage mentality. I’m not stupid, nor was I at 13. I don’t enjoy reliving the childishness again. I can’t wait to get out.