Are you fat? Yes No Hypothetical question for this blog. It’s a question I just came across on another blog/questionnaire and I had a moment. I sat here staring at the computer screen waiting to answer honestly. Without even thinking my mouse wandered to ‘no’ but then my brain kicked in. It said “I know you aren’t fat, but you *feel* fat”. What’s the difference?! Is there a difference?! Ok, I know that actual, real difference (in real life) but does it matter in context to this question. How does this question want someone to answer. Are you legitimately fat (proven by Waist-to-hip ratio or BMI)? Or just feel…

Disclaimer: This post is not in relation to John & I. People need not worry. It’s just things I’ve thought about throughout the years… All people in relationships have that moment where they think, is it supposed to be like this? Is this too much work? Are we too different? Where is the line that marks an ok amount and too much? There is no such thing as easy in an relationship. Sometimes it feels like it. Sometimes it looks like it. But what people don’t seem to realize is that it only looks easy because of the amount of work that goes into it. For instance, let’s think about…

Today I had a moment. A big moment. Almost life altering, but not quite. It just struck me. In the most inopportune time too. We went and sang at the Veteran’s Health Unit today. It was awesome. They really seemed to like it (they being the residents). But afterwards we had a tour and met some of the residents that couldn’t/didn’t come out to the ‘mini’ concert. We were in one man’s room and he was such a kind soul. A happy soul. I could feel it from the moment we walked into the room. He somehow held me captivated. He was sad he missed the show so we sang…

So….I’m back. It’s only been a few days since the last post. I had the flu so I had a day of downtime and detailed dreams that have led me to figure me out. I’ve done more soul searching and “self-diagnosing” and I’ve come up with a theory. For a while I have been looking elsewhere to other people, places, and things….but maybe that is the easiest. It’s easier to put blame and focus outwards than to turn it inwards. But recently, I have turned it all inwards and the soul-searching has finally turned up to be useful. I think I’ve found my answers….as obvious as they are going to…