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PTSD ?
PTSD. Something can be said for all we’ve gone through. It’s given me severe anxiety in certain situations. It doesn’t take much to make me flashback. There’s the smell that is in the MH NICU. Well that whole wing. Since the entrance shares the hallway to L&D it has a smell and atmosphere all to it’s own. It instantly can throw me back into one of the darkest times in my life and make me an emotional mess. There are certain wings and rooms in ACH that does the same. Even certain Doctors. There are deodorants, soaps, hand sanitizers, and even certain food & drinks that make me relive it all. It…
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Happy Birthday Mr. E!
I took this photo just minutes ago at the same time you were born. I do this every year. I honestly can’t believe how big you have gotten. It’s hard to believe it’s been 3 years since I experienced birth for the first time and met you. You have really been amazing this past year. You’ve seen things, you know things you never should have had to see at the ripe ol’age of 2. But, you were a trooper. You took it in stride and handled it so well. You are wise beyond your years Mr. E. I’m sorry you’ve had to grow up so fast some days but then…
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Driving like it’s his job
It’s about time I share some videos and pictures of the big little man! I take them and lots of them I swear! Here’s one from this morning. It’s only the 3rd time he would drive his car outside. We tried once on the sidewalk and it’s too fast on concrete that he got scared and wouldn’t get back in. He found out last night keeping it on the grass in the back lets it go slow enough that he’s not scared. Now to get the steering thing down and we’ll be laughin’. He at least looks well while reversing. Too bad it doesn’t stop him from running you over…
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Like a Boss.
For the first time ever he initiated steps backwards and sideways with our developmental aid yesterday morning. When we tried to replicate it that evening and well, he showed us alright! He walked forward!
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I want to be Mom
and only Mom. I forget how to be “Mom” now. I’m a physical therapist, speech language pathologist, vision therapist, occupational therapist, researcher, advocate, and all around president of the “Noah corporation”. I’m learning a new language in hopes I will be able to break into my son’s world and let his voice out one way or the other. I’m so much more than I ever thought, or wanted, to be. I just want to put all those other roles away and just be Mom. Nothing else. I want to worry about the amount of food he is or isn’t eating and not panic about weight gain and the amount of…