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Happy Birthday
Today I will eat chocolate cake (with boiled icing). Today would have been your 60th birthday. 60. You would have been only 60. It was too soon. Far too soon. It’s hard to believe 10 years ago today you were living your dream and celebrating your 50th birthday in Maui. Now we are celebrating it without you. As you know, chocolate cake is not my favourite but Elijah and I baked it and we will eat it today and love it and remember. I love you. Happy Birthday, Mom!
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My Mom
My world stopped when I got the call from my broken-hearted brother that I should get home as soon as I possibly could. It was the call I was dreading for days, but somehow suspected was coming. I got a flight that night (thanks to the most amazing WestJet employee who, after 1.5 hours, managed to find me a way out of Calgary) and got to my Mom’s side as quick as I could. I held her hand. I introduced her to Oliver and he held her fingers. And I talked, or rather mumbled and blubbered, and sat in silence with my brothers waiting on a miracle that never came.…
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CHARGE on for Noah
It’s that time of year. The 2015 CHARGE Syndrome Conference is quickly approaching and we are really hoping to get the whole family to the conference because it’s benefits are not just for Noah and not just to us as parents, but to his brothers as well. It’s the one place you see feel no judgement, you see no looks of pity. You just feel warmth and belonging. I have never felt something like it since the diagnosis. I feel weird fundraising for it but it might just not be possible to get us all there without some support. This is a priceless experience. Thank you from all of us.
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So why did I go on Hiatus from the blog…again?
I was back on track and doing pretty well keeping people up to date with life and pregnancy and all things us. Then once tests came back and gender was revealed I felt weird talking about and celebrating “normal”. It was like I was taking away from our Noah journey and it felt weird to me to make any sort of deal over the health of O. As if any celebration was a kick in the pants to Noah. I know, couldn’t be further from the truth but it was a strange place to be in. I love Noah and every thing about him and the memories I have of his…
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O’s Birth Story *LONG*
Short Version: Monday 4:50AM – Water breaks at home when I was walking to the bathroom 4:59AM – Text Doula to let her know my water broke and I was going to go back to bed 5:20AM – Bloody show starts 6:31AM – First contractions started; 5-6 minutes apart and ~30 seconds long 8:59AM – First strong contraction that was hard to manage 9:04AM – Called doula to come 9:33AM – Doula arrived 10:07AM – Leave for hospital 10:20AM – Admitted to L&D (8cm dilated & 100% effaced) 10:57AM – Spontaneously pushing and confirmed I was 10cm dilated 11:00AM – Dr. J arrives 11:20AM – O was born at 38w3d weighing 9lbs 11.8oz and…